30 Days of Hypnosis

Okay, so yesterday I wondered why I was anxious and I wondered if it was because today something horrible would happen.  Well, today I learned that I have gallstones, which is really more of an inconvenience than “something horrible,” but it still sucks.  I have an appointment with a surgeon on Friday, but I plan on pursuing other options before letting someone cut me open.  No way.  Not ever.  Get real.

What is particularly notable is the fact that, while I am annoyed by this, I am not wallowing in the misery of worrying about having surgery.  Last December, I had to have a similar surgical procedure and I was a total WRECK.  I worried myself into such a lather that there was no reasoning with me.  It was terrible and I wouldn’t want to have to do that again.  This time, I am not worrying about it because I know that I can simply say “no.”  If it turns out that I DO have to have surgery, I will worry more at that time, but trust me when I say that my not worrying myself sick right now is a bit of an accomplishment.

Not connected to anything above, I read in Patrick’s post about his weird dreams, and his reference to my dreams.  I think what I hadn’t previously concluded – but it just occurred to me – that it isn’t so much WHAT I am dreaming about, but rather the consistent feeling of total contentment in all of my dreams.  It is not something that I was putting together until I read his post, but it definitely holds true.  I don’t think the dreams are necessarily a side effect of the hypnosis process, I think they may be a by-product of the sense of well-being I am able to achieve in my sleep after listening to my script.  I am at the two week mark, and I really think that it’s consistently showing positive results.

Hubby states no change in his sleep on day two…I’ll keep you posted on his status.