30 Days of Hypnosis

I don’t know if I spelled that right, but since my last post I’ve had little successes all over the place, and you know what they say about a bunch of little successes… it’ll give you diarrhea.

In my case no diarrhea, but the whole “dieting” thing is still going strong… I’ve had noticeably stronger will-power to not indulge every time I walk through the kitchen or get done with a meeting at work. I put “dieting” in quotes back there because all I’m learning to do is not over-eat by 10-80% at every single meal… most of the day I feel hungry and honestly about half the time it feels intentional like I’m choosing not to eat, it’s not a passive thing — BUT, the success portion is taking the shape of my being able to keep myself on the wagon.

I caved last night and ate some ice cream and cheese puffs, but instead of eating the entire Ben and Jerry’s, I only had about 1/4 of it… that’s pretty good for me.

I worked from 5am until I went blind from mental fatigue at 5pm, ran 10 miles and then came home. I was completely ready to go into indulgence mode and rape the fridge, but I was surprised… I got myself a glass of water and we watched a movie… and I was satisfied.

I’m hungry, and I would be more than happy to eat 12 Krispy Kreme donuts or half a pizza, but I have this sort of calm control… I want all that stuff, and it still sounds fantastic, but I am not dwelling on it, every minute of the day like I normally would be. Especially after a hard work day or a huge run — you know how the thoughts go: “I DESERVE that 2000 calorie meal, I worked hard” — talk about the worst mental habit to have ever.

That’s like teaching yourself to buy something really expensive every time you save a dime… it’s damning, especially in the long run.

So I did the script tonight, since it’s Wednesday, and I noticed that if I turn on the “Beach” setting on the Brookstone Tranquil Moments Sound Therapy Machine we have while I read, I get into that hypnotized/monotone state a bit faster. I don’t necessarily think it has to do with helping me visualize the beach scene at the beginning of the “Induction” script — I have always visualized that fine — it happens right after when stepping into the modern building, that’s my favorite part. I’ll notice my voice down-shift into a more controlled/monotone setting and I feel just a hair different. I think the sound therapy machine helps occupy the wandering part of my mind just enough so it doesn’t trail off thinking about garbage and distract me, so I can focus on the reading.

The one take away thus far that I’m noticing is not so much random/unpredictable success, like winning the lottery, it’s more along the lines of a calm dedication or persistence to my behavior that is allowing me to stay on-task longer and accomplish more during the day, thus giving me more successes… so that’s a pretty neat side effect.

Day 2 definitely looking good so far.

Update #1: I meant to mention, I almost didn’t write this post until tomorrow morning because I’m really tired… but after reading the script it just made sense that I write it right now. I fully expected to cop-out on myself, but I didn’t… so that’s something.